Thursday, March 28, 2013
If you really knew me.
If you really knew me, you would know that I love coffees and teas.
But you would also know that I don't like strong flavors and that I have a pretty bland palette.
If you really knew me, you'd know that sitting down and watching a movie at night with a blanket and bad weather happening outside is actually one of my favorite things to do.
And I love going to the movie theater. I just love movies.
If you really knew me, you would know that I am really creative and I love to make things. Papercrafting is pretty much my zen.
If you really knew me, you would know that I actually really like science. Specifically anatomy.
If you knew me, you would know that I would much rather receive flowers or candy than a stuffed animal. Not a fan of stuffed animals.
You would know that I love lemons so much, but I'll skip out on lemonade. What's up with that?
You would be well aware that dogs make me really happy.
If you knew the deepest parts of my heart, you would know that I really struggle with God's decree that homosexuality is a sin. But I love the word and think it's perfect, so I trust in Him.
You would also know that I struggle with some of my appearance. I don't often voice it, but I don't care for my smile, the paleness of my skin, or the size of my breasts. I am reminded of the verse in Song of Solomon that says "All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you" (4:7 NIV), and that makes me feel lovely again.
You would know that, deep down, I really want to be pursued. Like most women, I want to be the beauty of some great story or adventure. But that want is often buried because it seems like a luxury granted only to the women who have their acts together. What I hear is that I need to "try harder." So I buy romance novels and movies to pretend like this want is less than it is. This struggle is being buried the more I travel on mission trips, the more I dive into the word, the more I follow Him.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I want to be right a lot. Being wrong is something that is hard to accept for me. Sometimes it brings out an ugly side of me.
You would know that I like to play the Diablo games. And Unreal Tournament.
You would also know that I love listening to scores for movies. My favorite ones tend to be with animated movies because they are so creative and sound really joyful.
You would also know that I love cupcakes. That's probably the most important thing to know about me.